I've had some thoughts that have been nudging at me lately. Ever since I was 9 years old I've thought that I wanted to become a teacher. It became an idea that just stuck with me, all the way until college. I had a few other thoughts (baker, food scientist, nurse) but I always made my way back to teaching. It's safe and I know what to expect from it.
Over the last few months, I've had some second thoughts. Maybe it's because I'm a little overwhelmed with school lately and my assignments hardly seem relevant to what I'll actually be doing. It's not that I don't want to teach, it's just that there are other things I'd like to do too. I really do have a passion for working with children and I think I could be happy as a teacher but, I don't see myself in the classroom long term.
What I think I'd really like to pursue is some kind of fashion design. I'm really interested in pattern designing. I would love to have my own online business selling patterns with very detailed (and pictured) instructions. Maybe even eventually design and sell clothing as well. It's a lofty dream that I've had for a while but, hadn't really thought was possible until having some success as a blogger. I'm starting to think that maybe it's something that I could do, provided I take some classes first. Unfortunately, A&M doesn't offer any kind of fashion design classes or I would be taking them as electives. Which brings me to a dilemma...
I can't fathom scrapping the degree that I've worked almost three years for but I just wish that I could tack on a minor in design. I wish I had the foresight to pick a more design centered school when I was applying to colleges in high school.
Another catalyst to all of these thoughts was going to see The Vow in theaters twice. Rachel McAdam's character is a former law student who dropped out to move to the city and attend art school. When she's in a car accident and suffers brain damage this decision, along with the memories of her husband, are erased from her brain. She has to make the choice all over again.
|Go see it if you haven't already!|
It made me look at my life and reconsider the direction I'm headed in. It sure sounds glamorous to drop out and head to some fancy fashion school in the city, but terrifying at the same time. I don't know, maybe I'm being a little melodramatic. It's just something I can't get out of my head lately. At the very least I could probably enroll as a part time student at the Art Institute or possibly UNT when I'm student teaching next spring.
Thanks for reading my ramblings. Just had to get that out. As always, I'm open to any feedback you have to offer. You can email me if you feel more comfortable that way (: